An unexpected call in the phone, after having my mind fixated with the same picture all day. She just asked about me, after a long time. Then when we get face to face she just fades away. It's like the wireless world is not willing to happen so far.
The next phone call goes deeper to the past more than my new life far away and now I realize how those days are gone, a long way gone.
Get out and have a cigarette, or make it three, I'm just second hand smoking anyway. Everything may change. For the better? I don't know. Out of the wire world it gets so confusing when voices and faces don't connect with the ideas in my head, since I'm giving up to emotion.
I still stay outside trying to think when all I do is feel, then trying to feel the way to go further up in life. Try to feel my own life, but it gets hard this day that I learned how an old friend hangs to life with all the strength he has left.
To think about the aches and pains going through my body, knowing the father of a baby boy can't even sit on his own. And the calmness in his voice. While others still try to kill themselves swallowing pills.
My eyes go far long away into the sky, casting my glance over the clouds head to one office and then another one, to meet the talker in the crossroads, get a light, and go back to the routine. Back inside under the roof in silence, and I think about him, and I thing about her.
Just waiting for another loud cloudy day around the steel, rubber and gasoline. To have that jolly part of life to give me the calmness to feel. This feeling inside.
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